Soon, the month of May will be upon us.

I have mixed emotions as I write this post.

My trans community members are still being targeted- more so in this year than any other to date.

People of color are still being murdered.

At the same time, I am the happiest I have ever been within myself, body and mind, and within my professional and personal life.

It has taken a long time to get here, and I never thought I could feel this happy.

I am also just hit 6 months of being married to the absolute love of my life and that feels wonderful.

However, I feel guilty and sad and confused when I compare my own overwhelming happiness with the complete horror of the world around me. It’s a very weird feeling…